i'm afraid to be hurt...i'm afraid to be left...i'm afraid to be abandoned...it's nightmare...but it's part of life...if i can't stand those nightmares,then should i die?...but,i shouldn't give up with my life...because God gives me those tests because He knows I can...all i can do is holding on and search for every pieces of my strength to stay alive...i want to live...i want to believe...

and i'm afraid that if i start to, i'll never stop...

[mencari redha Allah]